Anonymous asked: I dont expect you to reply to this, , i think right now all i want is to write how i feel and someone listen. i feel like im drowning, i literally cant breathe, i need to get out of my city and away, im only 17 and i cant stop crying and want to kill myself? how did it get like this? its not supposed to be like this, im not supposed to have these thoughts, i need to find myself, and i cant do it here and sometimes i think it would be easier to be dead..
“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
— Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
Not sure if this will help you but please seek happiness, chase after it, move away from the city and selfishly do everything you need to make you happy. You are the most important person in your world and you need to look after yourself. Dying is shitty, you don’t do anything after you die except make other people sad. Please think of all the good things in life, write them down, start noticing the sky and how pretty the clouds are, notice how lucky you are to be alive and embrace it. Do not live in the past and do not dwell on things. Happiness is found when you appreciate every small detail about your life and accept yourself.
Anonymous asked: how do you stay so positive?
I think it’s important to keep things in perspective. Try not the let little things get you down or make you angry, because you’ll end up blowing them out of proportion. This harms your happiness more than anything else, and it’s really not worth it.
Try to trust in the universe that everything will work out in the end, and focus on the positive things in your life, no matter how small they might seem. Appreciate what you have, and work on improving yourself rather than constantly comparing your life to others’.
Always try your best to help out other people, give them compliments and make them smile because there’s nothing lovelier than knowing you’ve brightened someone else’s day! If you’re feeling overwhelmed, go outside to breathe the fresh air and listen to your favourite songs.
We often forget how much good there is around us, because we focus on the past or the future. Realise that in this very moment, there is so much beauty in the world: in nature, in architecture, in the warmth of sunshine, in the connections you have with other people. Keep your head up.
I want you to promise me something. And I don’t care if you don’t know me, like me, or like making promises in general. Just do it.
Promise me that you will keep on living, even when everything is futile.
I want you to forgive yourself for the things that you’ve done. I want you to forgive yourself for the things that you should have done. Forgive yourself, even when you don’t think you deserve it.
I want you to love yourself for all that you are and all that you are not. I want you to love yourself, even if no one else does. You do not need the validation from another human being in order to know your worth. You do not need others to love you in order to show you that you are worth loving. The love that you develop for yourself is more than enough. Love yourself enough to stand on your own, without depending on the love of anyone else.
So stop injecting drugs to avoid reality. Stop with the pills and the cutting. Stop with the thoughts on jumping off a building and hanging yourself. Stop hating yourself and regretting about the past. Stop with the ‘what ifs’ and the ‘should have beens.’ And don’t you dare pull that trigger. Stop.
Stop and love yourself. It is the least you can do for you.